i am who i am

2007-03-28T03:26:00.000-07:00

heyheys...long time no post yea?finally in sec 1 now..lots of things different from the good old primary school days..would post a shout out later on to all those ppl that i miss so very very much..anyways..i will be changing blogs frm nw on..its currently WIP so will inform you guys(if you are there)of my new blog when it is ready..my faithful friend rachel is helping solve some last minute technical probs so it should be done soon:)so here goes my shout out:

to all of the ppl listed below,i just wanna tell you guys that i miss you lots and really hope you still rmb me!

mitch:)
laura:)
gloria:)
amal:)
mel:)
all 6/8ers:)
gb 35th coy!:)(im really so proud of you guys!)
esp frm gb:
janet:)
wen:)
eunice:)
clarissa:)
maureen:)
some shpsians(you know who you are:D)

sorry if i missed you, bt whoever you are im sure you hv a really special place in my heart too!<3

2006-12-25T20:06:00.000-08:00

heys..2 more days to orientation camp..totally dreading it..mum wants me to go learn some sort of dance..street jazz or sth..will see how busy i am nxt yr..learning lab..tennis..tution..cca..sighs..anyways..i just realised that im deathly afraid of the following:

losing all my friends and family

slipping on the stairs,falling forward and smashing my hip or falling backward and breaking my spine(i just realised this just nw while i was climbing the steps..i gripped the railings so hard i thnk i left nail marks on the wood..i knew my parents shldve put a lift at home..hmph)

i gt my new years resolutions out already:

improve in electone

improve in tennis

do moderately well in school

do well in cca

play a bit of the electric guitar(this is EXTREMELY wishful thnking but still..)

chistmas was great..gt like 20 over xmas msgs..its over tho:(cant wait for next yrs..going to the new ikea to shop and eat lunch..beef balls yea!blog soon..

2006-12-21T19:19:00.000-08:00

yawn..back from youth camp..super sleepy..and i hvnt even gt my beauty sleep yet..i left ttc for school to gt my school posting..and then went home and slept like a log for an hour and then had to go to the airport to see my cousin frm hong kong off..came home at 6..ate dinner..watched yang sisters(yesterdays episode was v dissappointing)practiced electone for almost an hour..took another shower then i watched 'executive decision' till midnight and zzzz...and i had to wake up at 7!!it was extremely difficult..went for orientation..gt orientation camp 28th-30th..so nt going to palm resort..wasnt really looking forward to that cus..lets nt go there..dun thnk i can make it through another camp..sighs..going to sleep nw...yawns..

2006-12-14T02:33:00.000-08:00

this week's been a pretty boring one if u ask me..finally gt my mum's xmas present..nw thnkin wad i shld give dad..relived my love for simple plan!at frens hse..using his com..its seriously cool..hes at army now..so hes nt at home..which is exactly why i can use his com..or the only way i could use it was to play counterstrike,warcraft or far cry with him..it wasnt too bad..but yea..g2g go eat dinner..tution at 730..hopefully can finish watching innocent steps..lat week gotta watch the climax for video research on the korean wave..man..my teacher almost watched every k-drama ever made..

2006-12-07T19:20:00.000-08:00

sighs..nothin much to do around here..theres this certain somone who is so incredibly irritating..i hope she doesnt go to the same school as me..the best outcome would be that she dissapears frm the face of the earth and never appear ever again..i mean..she practically insults me in the face..and still calls herself a friend..gosh..guess i'll go watch tv since theres nthin to do arnd here..tonight my friends are coming over!cant wait for that

2006-12-07T04:14:00.000-08:00

heys..finally back from my mission trip in myanmar..it wasnt really a mission trip..like we didnt hv to rough it out..like we stayed in the best hotel in yangon(5 stars btw)..got to eat hotel breakfast and restaurant meals everyday..we were there for the ignite youth conference,yangon,maynmar 4th-6th dec 2006.i really thank God for letting me go on this trip..it really opened my eyes to outside singapore and holiday places..the ppl in myanmar are just so on fire for jesus..made some new friends..wad can i say?it was just fantastic..the worship was awesome..oops gotta go..yang sisters on..will continue..ciao!btw..my new blog is up..

2006-12-01T22:47:00.000-08:00

sweat..my relatives are coming over frm msia today..hv to pack and pack and pack..cant wait to get a new blog..or new skin..no tennis today:(..going to myanmar soon..kinda nervous but god will take care of everything..yesterdays gathering was quite boring..hopefully the chrsitmas bash will be better..christmas..presents galore!gonna go edit my template..

2006-12-01T06:32:00.000-08:00

yawn..its so boring arnd here..cant go to sleep..and absolutely nothing to do around here..mayb i should go create a new blog..and i hv to go cut my hair before school reopens..im gonna go do quizzes..mayb i should watch ouran..yea i shld..kk..

2006-12-01T05:56:00.000-08:00

wadya noe..today actually took a turn for the better..no swimming..yay!i made choc chip cookies..and it didnt flop..so quite good..and now i hv my fave bunch of ppl over at my hse!so yea..im slowly starting to forget the ppl i wanna forget..cant wait for chalet..last time im gonna see all my friends..walter and moses playing sadist game..gonna go watch..its quite funny..will blog soon..cya

2006-11-30T19:41:00.000-08:00

nothin to look forward to today..gonna bake bread later..hope it doesnt come out like a ball of dough like the last time..found a new way to kill time..reading harry potter fan fics while listening to music..time flies by quite fast..dad says this movie executive decision that he just bought is really good..so gonna watch that later..going to swim at keppel..:(and dad is going..hopefully he forgets or sth and doesnt make me sign up for the gold medal swimming thingie..i absolutely detest swimming tests..list of things to look forward to:

christmas!!

class chalet

finding out which school im going to

going to the school(fine...only if its anglican)

going to bangkok with swl and swt

thats about it..re-reading harry potter..kk..gotta go..hv to change..this will be a long afternoon..

2006-11-28T22:18:00.000-08:00

yawn..its kinda boring around here..anyways..came up with the lastest wish list..high chance i wont be getting any of these but hey..a girl can dream cant she?:

new sport shoes

new hp

new billabong/roxy pencil case

converse sneakers

levi's skinny jeans

gift vouchers

thats about it..mayb i'll be getting them for xmas or sth but anyways..cant wait to watch james bond..and step up(hopefully)..so many things are happening/happened in the past month..i cant wait to go sec school and start fresh..cus i just cant break it to some ppl that i really cant stand em..so i just hv to put up with it..and some memories of ppl that i just want to leave behind in primary school..im creating a new blog..for a new yr..i guess i'll still blog here occasionally but yea..just send me a msg for my new blog..sighs..mayb cant go anglican..but i would rather go to ngee ann than go to chung cheng..its a nice school but its like so chinese..hw am i supposed to adapt?

2006-11-26T19:22:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..the year is end..and i wanna thank the following ppl for making a big difference in my life:

church-

auntie esther

uncle ian

amanda

uncle christopher

auntie poh leng

auntie molly

uncle ivan

tabitha

thanks alot for helping me know the Lord more..i would nvr hv taken my step of faith towards him this yr without u guys..

school-

sammi

laura

gloria

abi

melissa

amal

mitch

a few guys who i shall nt name

all the gb gals and officers!

thanks for being my friends and being there for me!

family-

mum

dad

twin

thanks for tolerating all my nonsense all these yrs and being so great!love you guys

thats about it..if i didnt include u pls dun be offended..just leave me a tag and i'll edit this post immediately..hugs..

2006-11-24T06:49:00.000-08:00

hey ppl...psle is finally over.including the results...not too bad..248 plus hmt..i wish i had done better tho..but its quite good already..considering i can go anglican..but now i hv trob choosing wad school to go to..cchsm or anglican..sighs..sumtimes i wish i didnt do so well..so i can go to the same school as some of my frens..but wads done is done..gonna go pierce my ears soon..scared..now gt plenty of frens at my hse..gt this annoying p5 brat over my shoulder spitting saliva..signing off..going to play icy tower..cyas

2006-10-23T03:32:00.000-07:00

heys..the psle is finally over..sighs..it feels kinda weird without hvin to study..like normally i would lie on my bed starin into space and my mum would shout for me 10 secs later but now its like i can do that for hours..in peace.anyway..only 14 days more with my frens in school!sighs..tryin hard not to thnk bout my results..till later..ciao

2006-09-20T00:10:00.000-07:00

heys..its me again..hvnt posted in quite a long time..anyways..lots of stuff hv changed prelims are over..psle is coming..im really afraid that i do badly(230)1.i cant go to the same school as my friends..who are all really smart btw2.my dad would be really dissappointed3.i cant go to a good school..*sighs*i wish i could stay in primary school forever..it isnt that bad actually..hearing the horror stories of sec school..but u cant change the truth..i was reading this book thats really interesting..heres and excert:a love that lasts forever.a guy u can count on to love you,no matter what.isnt that what every girl dreams of?as we frow up,somehow that dream persisits.no matter how much a girl likes to flirt or play the field,deep down she wants a guy that will love her forever.do u guys agree?tag me with ur ans k?i now love carrie underwood's songs..they're really good..'lessons learnt' is really meaningful..well..signing off..to all the p6s out there..study hard for the last 10+ days kk??then we can finally play as hard as we worked for 6 yrs..hugs,yan*

theres some mistakes i had made, some chances i just threw away, some roads i never should hv taken,been some signs i didnt see,hearts that i hurt needlessly[Lessons Learnt]-Carrie Underwood

2006-08-04T01:56:00.000-07:00

phew..ive a tough week..dun wanna talk about it..nobody told me p6 could be so complicated..but one thing is for sure..i hate alester mark..how much?more than gai yun hao..yea..that much..i hate him more than the hypocrites,the drama-mamas,the act-cools and such..its complicated..i never thought that a 12 year old can be so..ugh..well..ive lost a friend this week..i dun even know if he was a friend..it seemed like he was..but things change..and im so confused..but ive made a daring decision..to everything that happened this week behind me..concentrate on PSLE..get into to AHS and meet new ppl..put EVERYTHING behind me..except those real obvious ones lah..but sum just cant get out of my memories..wish me luck..now there are 5 things i cant live without:
1.family
2.friends(church school)
3.music
4.The Lord,My Redeemer
5.Anthony Horowitz(for sum ppl who thnk this is an actor or hot bod or watever..hes actually an author..and a really good..i LOVE his books ive read ark angel and point blanc oredi..just lovin them)

why did i let myself believe that miracles could happen cuz now i have to pretend that i dun really care[When There Was Me and You]-Vannessa Anne Hughs

2006-07-26T19:34:00.000-07:00

hey guys..its been a long time since i last posted huh?psle lor..sigh..STRESS..today is a holiday..and folks not at home but still hv alot of hwk..lots of things hv changed since i last posted..sum really shocking..sigh..doin psle paper now.not really hard..luckily..anyway..im gonna go finish it up anyway..cya!

you oh lord make the sun shine, the moonlight and the night sky..and i give my heart to you because i cant stop falling in love with you[I Cant Stop Falling In Love With You]-Hillsong

2006-07-14T19:41:00.000-07:00

ouch ouch and ouch again...my poor leg..after being whacked by kenny..it got whacked by a tennis ball twice..IN THE SAME PLACE!how unlucky can u get..busy week..and sum unexpected gifts..lol..im now eating the mini soon kueh auntie sin sin gave..absolutely deelish..monday is gb day..i SO do not feel like wearing gb uniform..sigh..unless i get extreme food poisoning,there's no way i can avoid that..found a nice song(only my close frens noe wad i mean so..just take it that the melody is nice)by rihanna-unfaithful

it kills him inside to see that i am happy with sum other guy[Unfaithful-Rihanna

2006-07-10T03:18:00.000-07:00

hey ppl!!its monday again..and school isnt goin so great..i totally hate my seat..its totally boring..front and back..even semele is moved to the front..boo hoo..i hope mrs dieu changes my seat altho the chances are 0.00000001%..i have to talk alot till she gets fed up and then change my seat..i cant talk alot to anybody at all near my seat..i talked to russell and mrs dieu changed his seat..why not mine?!?!i hv come out with a wishlist(im not sure if i posted this but im postin again if i did)
1.reef sandals
2.imac or acer ferrari laptop
3.maroon 5 cd
4.all seven colours of uniball signo angelic color pens
5.new pencil..
6.watch the devil wears prada,superman returns and pirates of the carribean 2
7.poster of all the teams playing in the world cup(played)like cousin lionel's
8.o neil or billabong handbag

i thnk thats all..i g2g anyway..so catcha later folks(okay im being lame)

cuz i know you're worth it[Things I'll Never Say]-Avril Lavigne

2006-07-04T23:17:00.000-07:00

today was the worst day of term 3 besides my bdae(that wasnt as bad as this)first thing in the morn..abi comes up and tells me that germany LOST to italy..i was so shocked i almost cried(maybe not lar but i was really shocked)then i walked to the foyer only to find russell shouting 'ying yan alester likes you again!!'amal told me that yesterday but i dun really believe her i still thnk that he thnks im a..nvm..the day progresses and before we leave for sci lab(which was another horrible double period)i saw iryan telling yong hong sth like calling joseph and then turning away so i wanted to saboh iryan so i told joseph..and iryan was like angry or wadeva so he went around spreading that i like joseph WHICH I DO NOT..how can i like sumone which is no better than a block of wood?!?!im predicting that tmr im gonna hv a worse day..and to make matters worse i cant hv lunch with the gang at macd's i come home and my parents are out so im home alone and im usin the com and lai en comes on msn and starts ratting rubbish at 100km/hr..do these guys hv nothin better to do or wad?tmr is sumone's bd..but nvm i dun care anyway

how can you mend a broken heart?how can you stop the rain from falling down[How Can You Mend A Broken Heart]-Micheal Buble

2006-06-20T16:21:00.000-07:00

hey guys..im finally back after 3 weeks of travelling..im so tired but i cant go to sleep..todays my bdae party and im pretty nervous..mitch is bringin her tg with sum party games so i hope that can keep us entertained..gonna watch sum movies and pig out..mum bought so much food..i cant go on much cuz my eye hurts and i cant see well(no specs)..see u guys soon..

im walking away from all the troubles in my life,im walking away im gonna find a better day[Walking Away]-Craig David

2006-06-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

hey..i actually wrote alot bout my church camp but the com hanged so i hv to write when im back in spore..all i can say is that it was sun sea sand and friends every single day..

nobody told me it would hurt so bad[How To Deal]-Frankie J

2006-06-03T02:00:00.000-07:00

hey guys..i realise i hvnt posted in a while and i guess this will be my last time for a long time cuz i'll be goin for church camp from 5-9 june and from there i'll go to KL and i'll be cumin back on the 12..and then i'll go to shanghai on 17 june and cumin back on the 21..bdae party mayb on the 22 or 23 cuz there's a JG telematch on the 24..and that'll be the end of my hols..six ppl bdae this month..clarence's on the 12..dad's on 17..gracia's on the 19..victoria..jia qi and my fren's on the 28 and MINE!!!im really lookin forward to it..

you've finally taken my pain away[Once In a Lifetime]-Craig David

2006-05-30T14:53:00.000-07:00

yawn..its so early in the morn..5:51 to be exact..parents left for japan at 4:30 and couldnt sleep since then..today is gonna be a long long day..my grandma is the kind who has to travel at least a few miles to eat a meal..to eat the best of its kind..i mean..like today shes bringing me to my cousin's hse..its quite boring there but i hvnt seen him for half a year and both my grandma and my mum thnks thats too long so thats a once in half a year thing..BUT we first hv to go all the way back to tampines to eat a fish fillet for breakfast then take the mrt to her friends hse in jurong east then take the bus to IMM to dieso and then FINALLY go to my cousins hse..by then its prob afternoon..i feel like just slacking and not takin a tour of singapore sigh..listenin to Ne-Yo..hes quite good..yesterday went to tm with my mum before tution to shope for slippers..went to op and couldnt find any nice ones(the ones i like were out of stock) so went to metro to maui girl for beach wear but nothin impressive as well..then went to bata to look around..i went to fila and finally found slippers..or flip-flops..there was an offer..you get 2 t-shirts and flip flops for 40 quite okay..its like world cup theme so i bought the germany pair cuz brazil ones didnt hv my size..and i bought the germany tee so it'll kinda like match..my mum bought herself the nederlands tee i was shocked..nederlands?!?!there was korea and italy..but they werent really nice..after that i went for tution and my mum went back to tm with her fren..she bought me this pink arena beach shorts..yawn..im gonna try and go back to sleep so gd night..lame

26 days till my bdae

im scared to find im always on your mind[Collide]-Howie Day

2006-05-29T17:14:00.000-07:00

actually i wanted to vent my anger here but then michelle called and saved me from tearin off my fav frog's ears and alot of blog space..mum and dad are goin to japan for 4 days leavin me alone at home..but i guess there's nothin much to do..tution everyday and trading places on sat so..yea..thats that..i found this song thats really nice -More Than Words-Frankie J..its so cool..im gonna write my plan for the next few days..i noe im lame but i cant thnk of anything else:
30 May(today)-TM at 11 shop for beach slippers and hopefully sum shorts and beach stuff.tution at 4.learning lab test at 730(argh)
31 May(wed)-goin to cousin's hse in jurong with grandma.takin the bus and all since she doesnt see a need in a taxi.singapore idol at 8(can watch terrence sing!!)
1 June(thurs)-slack around in the morn.tution at 4(hope marc doesnt come)
2 June(fri)-nothin much in the morn.chinese tutor comin at 230 to 430
3 June(sat)-TRADING PLACES!!and folks come back from 'the rising sun' or wadeva
4 June(sun)-church and electone lessons.last minute packin for church camp the next day
5 to 9 June-church camp(hurrah!)
10-? June-leavin for KL from cherating(church camp)dunno when we're comin back.

so thats the overall plan for the first half of june..later half is prob all studying.oh and before i sign off i'll give you the lyrics for the song and from tmr its exactly 27 days to my bdae YEA!!

More Than Words[Frankie J]
Saying I love you,
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy,
It would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me yeah,
'Cause I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two?
More than words
To show you feel
That you love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you (sayin' I love you, sayin' I love you, more than words, sayin' I love you, sayin' I love you you)

Now that I've tried to (Now that I've TRIED to)
Talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close yours eyes and just reach out your hand
And touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me yeah
'Cause I already know

Sayin' I love you x4
More than words
Sayin' i love you x2
More than words
More than words
Sayin' I love you x2
More than words
More than words

what do you get when you fall in love,you get enough tears to fill an ocean[I'll Never Fall In Love Again]-The Carpenters

2006-05-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

hey ppl..2nd time im posting today..just finished watching Singapore Idol...TERENCE ROCKS he looks so good and he sounds the most decent..among all the contestants that is..anyway..i forgot to add this in my last post..my church ROCKS!im so totally serious..i mean..ive only been to my church for like 2 years(life group 3) and compared to wei sze thats like really short..but on snow city i realised that in my church..it doesnt really matter..kk..so u prob dun noe wad im tokkin bout..i'll explain..yesterday we went to snow city..and i got whacked by this snow ball(i still dunno who) and as u noe the snow is not really like snow..its more like ice kachang..anyway..i whacked me of the face so damn hard..it hurt so bad..i was freezing already..being whacked doesnt help much..it felt like all the hot blood was being sucked out of my face..i thnk..i cant really put in words..but i was so scared cuz i didnt really noe wad happened(a.k.a. i couldnt proccess wad had just happened fast enough)when this whole group crowded around me and went(or i heard)'are you okay?''are u bleeding?'etc..those words that let ppl noe u care..and tissue came from everywhere and ppl held it there for me..and its not only girls and mums but its boys and dads and like even ppl i dun really noe..and u can really tell that they care..and so we got out and went into like this room where we kept our stuff..my face still hurt big time..and this small boy(which i learnt yesterday was called Luke)came up to me and asked 'is your eye okay?' i was so shocked i just replied 'yea thx' and lots of guys who i thot were against me were all askin me if i felt okay and stuff..and u can tell that they care..but they dont care because you're pretty,or if you're rich or if they like u in a special way or anything..they care because you're their fren and we are all in the same church..like one big family..and it feels so nice to know that they'll always be there for you..

i cant get her off my mind shes one of a kind[7 Days]-Craig David

2006-05-28T03:08:00.000-07:00

hey ppl...today in church i decided to go for church camp..so im gonna miss abi's 'great challenge' on june 10 and the entire gb camp...dunno if i made the right decision i was like debating so hard(in my head)i thnk i could break down..but my mum wanted me to go and the whole gang were like 'ying yan go lar..no you not fun one leh..'so i just signed up..it looks pretty cool..at this really cool beach resort in cherating and we can go for all those extreme water sports and outdoor sports..and the whole gang will be there so i thnk its gonna be great..yesterday there was the CMD outing to west coast park and snow city..it was quite fun..west coast park is kinda like pasir ris park..and we played two games..table soccer(but we were the ppl kicking the ball..note-to-self:NOT FUN) and captains ball..alester(NOTE:this is not alester mark that most of u noe..its alester koh from my church and hes like 18)was like the organiser..very dissappointing...when he came to the p6 children cell we played murderer quite fun..anyway...then we went snow city..doubly dissappointing..so small..me and wei sze went together..and she was like so cold..chattering like crazy..so we went out..i wasnt really cold..i had like four layers on(2 t-shirts,one jacket and the one they gave us that were supposed to be waterproof)wei sze only had three so i guess that one layer made all the diff..but i really salute alester(again not the one in school)and uncle kim soon..uncle kim soon only wore two layers..but he was really cold as well..alester wore two tshirts and a pullover and he wasnt even like cold..when he went down the slide he was just like smiling..unlike the rest of us who were screaming like crazy lol..so after the outing there was a party at my hse..only life group ppl came..walter amanda and me played com for quite a short while..playin the classroom 2 as usual..but didnt get very far..and so that ended my saturday..home alone now..folks not coming back for 5 hrs..wondering wad will entertain me..frens all out so no one to call and chat..msn only got clarice to talk to..sigh

and its so unbelievable that i'd finally be in love..somewhere i never thot i'd be[Unbelievable]-Craig David

2006-05-26T01:46:00.000-07:00

sigh..im creating another blog..and restricting who can read it...but like i said im still gonna use it..i realise my past posts are like morbid...so im gonna make all my posts like er..non-morbid..lamez..but before i leave these morbid post behind me..i just hv to say this:behind each smile theres a frown..but its often unnoticible..and when the blow comes..its unexpected..

do you know this guys got his eyes on you[Just Chillin]-Craig David

2006-05-25T06:19:00.000-07:00

HELP!im so confused..i hv no one to turn to cuz i dun noe one person whos on my side..and im like neutral..okay mayb on the other side but thats just me..im praying i find a way out soon..out of wad u may ask?hah..but im not telling..today napfa was like a flop..stayed at the stadium and waited waited waited cuz got lightning and thunder and stuff..hopin it was just a passing cloud so i could get over it..but no..so im doin the 1.6 tmr after assembly outside school..can skip like 1/50 of lessons..but it still counts:)i hope i can pass then if im not mistaken i can get a gold!!never did before so im counting on that ray of hope..school was pretty boring today...russell kept sanging this uganda song that just repeats..and his sound effects are sick..mr tan didnt come so this extremely sucky teacher relieved..

leaving a question for u guys:is love just a part of your life that you live or do you thnk that once u might that sumone its gonna be forever?
pls leave your ans at the taggiex..thx a million

first day of the rest of our lives i miss you already[First Day of the Rest of Our Lives]-MxPx

2006-05-24T05:25:00.000-07:00

im seriously thnkin of creating another blog...i wanted to type this thing ive held in so long...i used to be able to type stuff i wanted..watever i wanted...but now i cant..because well...the answers obvious isnt it?but nvm..i'll still be using this blog..cuz like its gaining popularity quite fast..lol:Dfunfair today was like BORING...there were football matches at the basketball court..and so me and michelle sat on the railing to eat our lunch(nuggets and ice blend yum)the match we were watching like wasnt really interesting...i thot the ball was too big for the guys...the ball wasnt kicked out and nobody fell on their butts(jkjkjk)..actually yes..three of them were trying to kick the ball..and ppl trip,fall etc and thus a clash of three sweaty ppl fighting over a ball..i still dun see the point of playing football..kicking balls into nets...and end up all sweaty..but if i put it that way you'll prob say theres no point in playing tennis either..but i just love tennis..so the match was like all the other normal matches during reccess except that a teacher and a sec 2 guy played and there was a referee so they didnt like fight over a goal or no goal..enough with that..most of the time the gals(steph,mitch,laura,semele,joce and lydia) and me just stayed in the activity room and played murderer and detective...whilst watching star wars..and when theres this part when the two ppl are about to kiss the room(which was buzzing with p1s)went completely quiet..and when they do we all clapped..lame..i noe..but it was really fun and there was air con so it rocked..we helped miss chua with her stall for a little while..i set my roasted marshmallow on fire and blew it out like a candle..i won three soft toys in the fair..three really lame ones but i can always give it to a church fren..i gave the last one to moses and he plunged a knife through it(according to him)but the knife is prob fake..g2g tag my fren..cya

you're the kinda guy that sends shivers up and down my spine[Ultimate]-Lindsay Lohan

2006-05-23T07:02:00.000-07:00

i just deleted this mega long post bout sth that happened today..becuz if anyone of the ppl inside read it(especially the ppl i use as an example)..i could be in serious trouble..mayb not..but my close frens should noe so thats all that matters..but i thot it was quite cool..unexpected...mayb i'll tell you some other time..its hard to believe..

in a way it was kinda sweet...

why dont you tell her the feelings that you hide?[Why Dont You Kiss Her]-Jesse McCartney

2006-05-22T04:41:00.000-07:00

yo ppl!im back from the nederlands..the football fever is quite hot there..the holland colour is orange,which doesnt look very nice..but its the spirit that counts isnt it?i went to amsterdam for a day,then took the train(the train there is very nice you can take it all around europe and u dun even need your passport)to brugge which is like the most romantic place ive ever been to,then took the train in antwerp(or antwerpen) which was quite dissapointing after brugge and then took the train back to amsterdam and then flew back to SINGAPORE..lol im so lame..im gonna talk bout brugge..i can go on forever so dun mind me..brugge is very different from the city of spore..when u walk into the heart of the town,away from the train station and all..u find urself stepping into a set of 'sound of music' or 'mary poppins'serious..and its so so nice..the street isnt even made of tar or tiles in spore..its made of stone bricks and its so nice..there are canal,rivers and lakes running through the whole of brugge..and each bridge has its each story.eg the Lake of Love..its situated infront of a real nunnery..there are lush green trees all around and swans swimming in the lake..i took a few pictures and will try to show it on this blog..i cant put it in words how much i love brugge..it is the most fantastic place ive ever been to..well..if im in the mood i'll tell u more next time..but now im like so nervous..tmr is NAPFA for the 1.6km run..i finished my 5 items and got a 20 so lets hope i pass my running so i'll get a gold..ive got to take my mind off it and try to talk bout sth else..today in school sumone was quite nice to me..imean nicer than i thot..but nvm..i dun really care..36 more days to my bdae and i got my bdae present from my mum already..i bought it in amsterdam..its beautiful..anyway..i hv achieved my target of getting 70 and above for all my subjects..so heres the scores:
English:81
Math:72
Chinese:84(yay!)
HMT:72
Science:80.5(but that .5 doesnt really count so its just 80)

signing off...still quite nervous..

one heart,one soul to walk beside you[One in a Million]-Haylie Duff

2006-05-05T01:56:00.000-07:00

hey ppl..exams are two days away..so this is gonna have to be my last post for the next two weeks(goin for hols right after the exams..im off to belgium..whee!:))if lady luck is on my side i get to use the com after 4 straight hours of math for 30 mins...im making it sound like my parents are so bad..but as weird as it gets..im doin it with a somewhat willing heart..cuz i feel guilty when i dun do my work..especially my math..i really wanna do well this time..like at least above 70 for math..it sounds pretty low but if u see my marks for the previous exam..im setting an okay target..today it was half day...p.e. sucked..we were playing captains ball-basketball note to self-NOT FUN..and im gonna miss napfa(holiday)...mrs dieu says its okay but i dun thnk so..not that i want to take napfa but i just wanna do it with my frens..not alone..in life we cant really get wat we want huh?i thnk its pretty safe to write wad i want in this post..its the exams for the next week and i dun thnk anybody will really read it...or if anybody reads my long and dreary posts anyway..oh and im hving a bdae party!!ive hvnt had one since i was 5 and am pretty freakin out but wad to do..my current phobia is that everybody will just end up going home thnkin its the most boring party in the world..ARGH..so pls pls give suggestions..michelle says she played captains ball at her party last year..but i cant cuz i dun hv a void deck or a court near my hse..my cc is pathetic and quite far away..HELP!anyway..i recently rediscovered a song(from my 400 over songs-and counting-in my mp3)its 'thats when i'll stop loving you' by n sync..one line really is so real to wad ive been feeling this year..at least after wad happened last year..but i doubt u guys will noe since there are only 3 ppl in this entire universe that noes...but its about not believing in guys anymore...or trusting what they say...lyrics are here:

That's When I'll Stop Loving You[N Sync]
When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever (yeah yeah)
That's when I'll stop loving you (that's when I'll stop loving you)
That's when I'll stop loving you

I'm sure you've heard these words before
And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more
You're afraid it all might end
And a broken heart is scared of breakin' again

But you've gotta believe me
I'm never leavin'
You'll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you
That's when I'll stop loving you, yeah

Long as sunlight lights the sky
The light of love will be
Found in these eyes of mine (these eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You're the only one
I'll ever give this heart to

What I'm trying to say is (to say)
Nothing will change this
There'll be no time you won't find me there
Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Well you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving

That's when I'll stop loving you
That's when I'll stop loving you

When this world doesn't turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining
Till then I'm gonna be by your side
I'm gonna be loving you forever
Every day of my life.. baby

Oh yeah yeah
Well you know then baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving..
That's when I'll stop loving you
When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth (lies become the truth yeah)
Well you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving (that's when I'll stop loving)
That's when I'll stop loving you
When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
(Well you know then, baby)
That's when I'll stop loving (that's when I'll stop babe)
That's when I'll stop loving you

That's when I stop baby
I'll stop babe
Lovin you

oh and on the rate of 1-10..i hate jason siah on 50

who am i gonna lean on when the times get rough[We Belong Together]-Mariah Carey

2006-04-30T07:35:00.000-07:00

today was an extremely tiring day..had to maths maths and more maths but i hv to ace math(75 only :D)and every other subject to get a better phone...only went out for church and to buy mums bdae prezzie...dad bought her a new phone..6280 i thnk..i got a few stuff on my wish list tho...lets see..i'll attach it below

Wish List 2006
1.Sneakers
2.New Tennis Racket
3.Phantom of the Opera Electone Scores Book
4.Go to a good Sec School..

i noe u cant buy the last one..but still a gurls gotta hv hope..the list goes on actually..but i cant thnk of everyone now..lemme thnk bout a topic and then launch into a grandmother mode of talking...smsing hmm..i could do that..kk..lately ppl keep smsing me bout wads happening in their part of the world..and even my classmates sms and tell me wad ppl around talk about even tho they're like a metre away..im not complaining tho..it can be really really interesting..but see..lately lots of ppl only sms bout things bout alester!!its really frustrating..rumours all of them..i always tell myself..seriously..out of the gals in the class...why me?!there are like 24 gals in the class...and im the one they like to talk to bout this other guy...okaay..im not gonna act stupid and pretend i dunno wads goin on..i noe wad u guys are sayng..i still thnk its none of my frikkin business wad alester says or does..u may thnk it does..but i for one certaintly DO NOT..we all hv a life..and without this era it makes a really big diff..and a really good diff as well..in my inbox about 80% of the smses are bout him..like wad he said today..wad song he sings...who on earth needs to know that?but im not sayin everything bout the alester-crazy thing is bad...i get to hear funny nicknames and see funny things my frens do...lets take michelle as an example..currently the nickname for him is...blushing singing squirell who drinks justea almost everyday...and everytime he walks past michelle starts singing 'shes a 5 foot ten in catsuit and bambi eyed'[When You're Looking Like That]-Westlife....and u see him smile like a kid u hv just given a humongous lollipop to..i wonder if both of them..*ahem* nvm...the majority is against me..wadeva i say is like completely useless...cuz u guys will always thnk that..well nvm...the whole thnks so except me..im like a black sheep or sth...omg..i just spent 300 over words on a guy..sometimes i totally hate myself..

p.s.to whoever i hv unconsiously insulted...im terribly sorry..please except my deepest apologies...LOL im sorry kk guys...most likely im deleting this blog off

i thot she knew my world revolved around her[I Thought She Knew]-N Sync

2006-04-29T15:51:00.000-07:00

its so early in the morn...had a huge row with rms yesterday night..well its all my fault..i wish i just kept my mouth shut...he must hate me to the ends of the earth..or thnk im sum sort of weirdo in the least..oh yeah..i forgot..im supposed to fill you guys in on the match...so here goes..there was this two seperate team one...but i was closer to the JLs(gb) one...they were playing against the LBs(bb)...and yes..alester was playing...anyway..everybody was asking me to play..including laura(dun ask my why u should noe if you dun just dun ask)..who didnt hv cf but still stayed in school...i didnt want to..but in the last minutes i did...now i wish i did..but still...then there was an individual match which was JLs two officers and me!lol im so lame..we were against mr bae(or bay i hv no idea)and the Lbs by right we hv more manpower..but if u hear the whole story..you'll thnk twice..one of the officers has a back prob..asking her to jump is heartless..the other officer was wearing high heels...whereas mr bae(again excuse my spelling)was playing like sum guy in the lakers..forgot his name..but the point is..he just rocks at captains ball..i thnk he plays basketball..but it was a good game..really good..the after-feeling was even better..i guess im not really upset that we lost..they're good...but they practice everyweek or sth..the games we play in gb are more..erm..feminine...last week they were playing captains ball with a rugby ball!!we dun even do that in pe..i noe im weird..cuz right now im gonna talk bout wad happened during the game...i was given a job actually...but i didnt do it very well...see everybody has to block sumbody..altho nobody really did..during half time everybody was askin me to tho...but the guy i was supposed to block didnt even like stay in one place for long,he slides on the floor,and when he catches the ball..he does it rugby way..but he still catches the ball..hey.. i noe i said i want rougher games..but take at least some pity on me kk?and i kept saying sorry to the guys i bumped into..i dunno wads my prob..well..they just looked at me like shocked and said sorry..i can still remember the look on micheal's face...but the game was too fast so i dun really have a clear image..it was a bit funny..but mostly shocked..mr bae(?)..i bumped into him once or twice..my friends did too...and everytime that happens he raises his hands up in the air..like hes innocent or sth(well he probably is)omg i hvnt realised ive written so long...but before i go i jsut wanna ask if anybody noes who sang beauty and the beast??

if you every leave,baby you would take away everything real in my life[How Do I Live]

2006-04-28T20:24:00.000-07:00

just came back from tennis..played so badly..kept whacking the ball with the rim of my racket..hopefully can get a new one soon..current one so heavy..but while i was playing a thot came to my mind..you noe when ppl ask u question..like over and over again..u sorta hv a fixed answer..so u dun hv to thnk each time they ask..but one day..sumone asks u again and ure about to say no(again)then u rethnk it..like things hv changed since the time u first answered...things are different now..then ure caught in the middle..thats the fix im in now..try to thnk..and ask for advise from frens..but no one gives me an answer..HELP!will fill u guys in on the match with the bb boys in the nxt entry..but till then,all i can say is that the gb must really hate the bb..i dun hate the bb THAT much..but obviously the whole co. does...will tell u more..

i just wanna be your friend[Friend]-Kaitlyn

2006-04-26T02:54:00.000-07:00

oral tmr so freakin out!!!!today in OPT it was quite fun we got to grade the two other ppl...marcus was so funny(blur..) me and malya was like laffin all the way..but anyway..wish me luck kk?abi lent me the hillsong united cd..latest..and it so rawks..especially 'the time has come'gave mitch her bdae present...and b4 i forget..HAPPY BDAE LAURA!!!from tmr..it'll only be 2 mths till my bdae..still countin..

you can tell someone you love them,from the bottom of your heart..and believe that its the truest thing you've said..--blank--

2006-04-22T23:03:00.000-07:00

just came back from church..supposed to do my maths assesments but i grant myself 15 minutes to blog...lol..ms law is putting together a school worship team..but school no electone so no part for me..and for the unwanted attention part..so far so good..not one of the unwanted visitors(hockey guys prefably) tagged me..*sigh*today in church i just felt this longing to be like in the worship band..must pass my ESCNs then can go learn frm terrence or ivan(ppl from school these guys are my youth leaders NOT from school)yay!

love is an energy,love is a mystery,love is meant to be true[L.O.V.E.]-Ashlee Simpson

2006-04-22T16:37:00.000-07:00

so early in the morn..got to go for church later..wondering when the next JG sunday..and im appealing for stuff again..but not for trading places..does anybody out there have the 'romeo and juliet' book??not play version or simplified..just the book..i cannot seem to find it..i thot i found 'phantom of the opera' book at home but its like a review and is so so diff from the movie..i hv the dvd for phantom of the opera so if anybody wants it just tag me..the songs are really really nice..im trying to find the electone script for 'all i ask of you' its not really like romantic or anything..but the songs are just wow..it is kinda scary...i mean the phantom goes around killing ppl..and its not xactly happy tree frens..oh and the reason im askin for the romeo and juliet book is becuz i wanna find out whether romeo died or not..sum ppl say he died of food poisoning(so not romantic)sum say he thot juliet died and he killed himself but then juliet didnt die but once she knew romeo died she killed herself and everybody dies...:(im secretly hoping that that doesnt happen but still..so pls tag me if u hv the book..tyty..and check out these songs that i found quite nice..everytime we touch-cascada...fill me in-craig david..right here waiting-richard marx..so sick-ne-yo..i'll give u the lyrics for everytime we touch,fill me in and so sick..

Everytime We Touch[Cascada]
I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,
I still feel your touch in my dreams. (my dreams)
Forgive me my weakness,
but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,
your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry. (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.

Fill Me In[Craig David]
I was checking this girl next door
When her parents went out she'd phone
Say 'hey boy, come on right around'
So I knock at the door, you were standing
With a bottle of red wine, ready to pour
Dressed in long black satin and lace to the floor
So I went in, then we sat down, start kissing, caressing
Told be 'bout Jacuzzi, sounded interesting so we jumped right in
All calls diverted to answer phone
Please leave a message after the tone
I mean me and her parents were kind of cool
But they were the fine line between me and you
We were just doing things young people in love do
Parents trying to find out what we were up to
Saying why were you creeping 'round late last night
Why did I see two shadows moving in your bedroom light
Now you're dressed in black, when I left you were dressed in white
Can you fill me in
Calls diverted to answer phone, red wine bottle half the contents gone
Midnight return, Jacuzzi turned on
Can you fill me in

Whenever the coast was clear and she'd ask me to come out
I'd say 'hey girl, come on right around'
So she knocked at the door, I was standing
With the keys in my hand to the 4x4, jumped in my ride
Checking that nobody saw
The club we went in, we got down bounce, bounce to the rhythm
Saw it was early morning, thought we'd better be leaving
So I gave you my jacket for you to hold
Told you to wear it 'cos you felt cold

I mean me and her didn't mean to break the rules
I weren't trying to play your mum and dad for fools
We were just doing things young people in love do
Parents trying to find out what we were up to
Saying why can't you keep your promises no more
Saying you'll be home by 12, come strolling in at 4
Out with the girls, but leaving with the boy next door
Can you fill me in
Wearing a jacket who's property, said you'd been queuing for a Taxi
But you left all your money on the TV
Can you fill me in

All they seem to do, is be checking up on you, baby
Watching your every move
Think some day, they might approve, baby..........

Why were you creeping 'round late last night
Why did I see two shadows moving in your bedroom light
Now you're dressed in black, when I left you were dressed in white
Can you fill me in
Calls diverted to answer phone, red wine bottle half the contents gone
Midnight return, Jacuzzi turned on
Can you fill me in

So Sick[Ne-Yo]
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
'Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
'Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice
Anymore
(It's ridiculous)
It's been months for some reason I just
(Can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(Enough is enough)
No more walking 'round with my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

(Chorus)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memories
And now every song reminds me
Of what used to be

(Chorus)
That's the reason
I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

O-o-h (Leave me alone)
Leave me alone (Stupid love song)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Then lettin' go
Turning off the radio

(Chorus x3)
'Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
She were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(So why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

and i wont forget the way u loved me[On The Way Down]-Ryan Cabrera

2006-04-22T03:52:00.000-07:00

im back..so bored home alone..nobody online...u noe..yesterday got GB and it was pretty okay..stayed in the chapel most of the time...TRADING PLACES cumin..hurrah..must find stuff to auction pls donate kk ppl?but no blue OP t-shirt must wear chia t-shirt *sigh*

those three small words were way too late[Three Small Words]-Josie and the Pussycats

2006-04-21T23:40:00.000-07:00

finally get to use the com...was back to school..and my 'new' seat totally sucks..the guy nxt to me..russell..is the most irritating guy ive ever sat with..he sings songs like bob the builder,hi-5 etc..if u just heard him sing u would thnk hes a 5 year old..and a few days ago he was chanting chloroflorocarbons...now my frens say it too..grr..but hes a hockey boy..whadya expect..the ones in my class..most of them cant keep their mouth shut for long..enought bout him..im enjoying the two days without his motormouth..songs..check out 'somewhere i belong' by linkin park and 'do you believe in love' by craig david..im goin crazy over craig david seriously..i'll give u the lyrics for somewhere i belong..it rocks actually..*sigh*and my blogs getting sum unwanted attention..so i cant say the things i used to say...life is so so unfair..but like i said,frens make up for it,all of it..

Somewhere I Belong[Linkin Park]

When this began I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find that
I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
but all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real.
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I cant believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
looking everywhere only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind.
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I want to heal, I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong
I want to heal, I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

and check out 'On the Way Down' by ryan cabrera..

you'll always be the sunshine of my life..and yes i believe in love[Do You Believe in Love]-Craig David

2006-04-12T20:04:00.000-07:00

i hv decided to be a bit more positive bout this whole being sick thing..so..3 more days till i get to go to school!!but on monday i hv to go for an excusion with 6/5..and noe not a single person there!!sigh..can i just not go?!took a blood test yestersday..it hurt like so so much..i was gripping my shorts so hard i thnk if i lasted one more second i would tear my short..and the wound isnt even like the normal injection,a barely visible dot..its like red circle and its bruised..the docter slowly pulls the needle thingie and its like your arm feels like its shrinking..the upper part at least..oh..and they tie this band thing slightly below your elbow..really tight..and then they inject the needle into like this vein that is slightly popping out..ouch! if you thot the injection in school was bad,when u take a blood test,i thnk u'll cry..and if u cried during the injection,i thnk u'll wail..i didnt muahahaha...

you're still the one i run to,the one that i belong to-Shania Twain[You're still the One]

2006-04-11T19:23:00.000-07:00

so sick...third day of staying home form school..come to thnk of it its the longest period ive ever stayed at home since i was P1..ive always been on the healthy side..but now..ive got high fever,coughing(really bad coughing,i can cough till im breathless,my face goes red and my eyes become watery) and blocked/runny nose..in the afternoon i hv to go the clinic for a full body check up to see if i hv degue or hfmd..i hv a prolonged fever it seems...really hope i can go to school tmr..friday is gd fri so no school..heard from my friends that there has been a major change of seats..including me..no more talk bout morbid stuff kk?one of my frens introduced me to this site..u can listen to songs..its quite cool..but its not 100% dat u can get ur song..but overall its quite cool,its free but u hv to open up an account..but foc again..check it out..its www.radioblogclub.com

so sick of love songs,so tired of tears,so done with wishing u were still here..-Ne-Yo[So Sick]

2006-03-29T22:34:00.000-08:00

i just found this song that is just..i cant explain sad?touching?i thnk if u really look at it like the lyrics and all..there may be more than wad it seems.. the song is 'i just cant live a lie' -carrie underwood..its more on the romantic side i guess..anyway..here goes:

[Verse 1:]
Lately, nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier,
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can’t watch you walk away
Could I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we’ve been through?
Could I wake up without you everyday, would I let you walk away?
No, I can’t learn to live without
And I can’t give up on us now

[Chorus:]
Oh, I know I could say we’re through
And tell myself I’m over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you
Now and try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can’t live a lie

[Verse 2:]
Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy,
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe,
The way you know just what I mean,
No, I can’t learn to live without
Ohh, so don’t you give up on us now

[Chorus:]
Oh, I know I could say we’re through
And tell myself I’m over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you
Now and try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can’t live a lie
Ohh, and I don’t wanna try
[Chorus:]
Oh, I know I could say we’re through
And tell myself I’m over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you
Now and try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can’t live a lie
I just can’t live a lie
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I, I just can’t live a lie

Oh, I can’t live a lie
Oh, I can’t live a lie

signin off..hopefully leavin u guys sumthin for u guys to think bout..or not

2006-03-27T00:17:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..injection tmr..so freakin out..not as much hwk but still..*sigh* life can be so unfair sumtimes

i dont need the hurt and i dont need the pain-Jennifer Lopez[If You Had My Love]

2006-03-25T15:53:00.000-08:00

so frustrated..hv u ever felt that absolutely no one noes how u feel they thnk they do but they dont..they tell other ppl stuff bout u dat isnt even true..and then when ure gonna blow ure top and decide to tell them everything,u thnk of the consequences and then just shut up..sigh

can you trust this longing and take control?-Hilary Duff[Fly]

2006-03-25T01:40:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..its da weekend..and u cannot believe how fast it has passed so far...so tired and so bored still got hwk but cant bring myself to do it..sigh..life can be so so boring sumtimes..got injection this tuesday..nervous..really nervous

what is love?its a kiss on a rainy day,a smile that wont go to away and a safe place..what is love?but a complicated simple truth,a bong between me and you,the number one.[What is Love?]-Play

2006-03-15T16:25:00.000-08:00

hey ppl...HOLIDAYS just came back from shanghai..brr..so cold dere..so gald to be home..one part of me wants to go to skool(weird ryte??) i kinda miss my friends..its weird when i do my hwk and its silent..but the other part of me wants to just stay at home and slack..sigh..life is complicated..

'thats the beauty of life,close your eyes,go to sleep and wake up to another day'-Clay Aiken[I Will Carry You]

2006-02-22T00:31:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..CA1 cumin up..got this killer flu..loads of hwk *sigh* life's unfair

2006-02-20T21:26:00.000-08:00

hey ppl in da com lab now..sigh hv to go..

2006-02-03T16:04:00.000-08:00

hey guys,i noe its been a while since i blogged on this blog so ive decided to try and blog every weekend cuz cant use com on wkdays becuz psle:( now the speech is over heres the blog:

hv u ever heard a song and like listened to the lyrics instead of the tune?and like the lyrics really mean sth to you or make so much sense to you...like ure hving like connection with the singer..once i was in a frens hse and she played me n my other fren this so that was supposed to be a tribute to the 9/11 victims.the song was 'in heaven' with a little girl praying to her in heaven..aww..I CRIED so did my fren..(im so touchy.:P)heres a song('because you live' by jesse mccartney)i found it like really sweet.
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know
[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's all right, I survived, I'm alive again
Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use
If you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always
[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

i bolded(is there such a word) the line that was really really sweet to me..i noe my blog is kinda long(LOL!:P) but stay tuned kk?

2005-11-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

hey ppl i jus wanna say thx to chris for helpin me start up this blog...